[Viktor presses him back inside, and Jayce steps aside to let him in, closing the door afterward.]
You stopped answering so fast, I thought...
[Well, he thought a hundred things. He imagined that Viktor had vanished the moment he stopped talking- which he knows is incredibly unlikely, but try telling that to his anxiety. He imagined that Viktor interpreted his disappointment as disinterest- disappointment, even the slightest amount, is something he already feels nervous admitting to, given the people-pleaser that he is. Along with the fact he tried to change things up, it had "I fucked up" written all over it when he poured over the very small text exchange. Maybe Viktor was distracted by someone else more interesting, maybe Viktor had been kidnapped-]
Don't worry about it. I'm fine now.
[And he reaches up to cup Viktor's hand, sliding it over slightly so he can press a kiss to his palm.]
I do often wonder what you think. So smart and yet you can be quite the fool sometimes. You thought I might be mad at you, Jayce? [ Dear Janna. ] Quite the opposite. I enjoyed the photos you sent.
[ He just gives him a look and a huff as Jayce presses his lips against his palm. It sends a thrill through him, but he does have to look behind Jayce before raising an eyebrow at the display. ]
What is all of that? [ Besides extremely romantic for something that was a simple texting thread. Viktor sure is having so many mixed feelings about it. He feels...strange but not in a bad way. Just most of their encounters thus far haven't exactly been like this, romantic and so openly at that. Viktor's look is quick, so he misses the present on the bed, focusing back on Jayce instead. ]
[A little embarrassed at how off-base he was, he instead doesn't elaborate on what scenarios his mind ran through, because it would ruin the moment even more than he already almost had.]
The candles?
[They have clearly been melting for at least an hour, but all the lights in the apartment are on, since he didn't work his way up to their purpose in the photos.]
Mood lighting. And also... you know. Maybe other uses, if we wanted.
[Waxplay, for one. Jayce is still holding Viktor's hand, although now intertwining their fingers, and pulling Viktor in closer so he can place his other hand on the small of Viktor's back.]
And the present is because I didn't get you a gift for the holiday or your birthday, so I doubled up on it.
Other uses, Jayce? [ Wow. Viktor looks at him, a little bit mesmerized and amused. ] Well, I am always glad to see you so eager to try new things.
[ It's very, very, interesting. Viktor, when pulled in closer, lets out a soft sigh as he lets go of his staff, placing it against the nearest countertop before using his other free hand to caress Jayce's cheek.
Nothing but yearning and wanting in his eyes as he smiles slightly. ]
I see. [ He gives Jayce a small, gentle kiss. ] I like this. It is different, but when it comes from you, it does make me feel...content.
[ Loved. Wanted. It almost feels like too much all at once, but Viktor doesn't voice that to not ruin the mood. ] If this is the gift I get for sending you half-naked photos, I will have to invest in doing so more often.
[ Just trailing that hand down toward Jayce's chest now. ]
I've told you before, there's a lot of new things I want to try. I could make a list? We can make a schedule?
[Trying to organize their sexual activities into itemized and checkboxed list... You know, like a scientist would do.
With both of Viktor's hands on him now, and the staff away, Jayce takes the opportunity to kiss Viktor, and then lean him back, dipping him with the kiss. He pulls Viktor back up once he feels the blood start to rush to his head a little too much.]
You could have sent me nothing and I still would have done this. I'd do this for you any day of the week. But also, send me the pictures. I'll find a way to put them on my wall.
Like me watching you and Dodger? You seemed quite eager to try that. But I am glad that you want me there, as long as I get to have you afterwards. [ A breathy little admission into Jayce's ear before he pulls back. ]
You really want to schedule and make lists for this sort of thing? [ Viktor can't help but let out a soft laugh. It's ridiculous, but so obviously them that he can't help but agree to it. ]
But I would like that, quite a bit. There have been some things...I would like to, eh, try as well with you. [ Does cracking open your soulmate's chest and touching the weirdly cosmic eldritch goo underneath count as a sexual act or a science experiment?! Tbd!
Viktor's eyes shimmer with surprise when he's dipped backwards like that? Jayce please!? His free hand goes to cup Jayce's neck, deepening that kiss even as they both come back up. He is pressing himself eagerly against Jayce's body now, eyes half-lidded. ]
I will send you one, no multiple, every day from now on, if you would like.
[Jayce's eyebrows pinch together, lips pursed as Viktor brings up Dodger, once again a little red in the face and trying to disguise it.]
At least, you know... Once. To see if we like it.
[Nevermind that he's getting hard at the idea of being passed back and forth between them.]
We can be loose with the schedule, but a checklist- come on. You can't say that wouldn't be a good idea.
[He presses another kiss to Viktor's lips, then slides his tongue into Viktor's mouth, pressing against Viktor's own. With his hand still on Viktor's hips, he pulls him close, and his rather unsubtle hard-on presses against Viktor's stomach, even as he breaks away again.]
Tell me more about what you'd like to try. Maybe I've got something in that box that'll help get the job done.
I think I see clearly enough how much you do like the idea of it. [ Viktor will murmur against Jayce's lips as a pleased moan passes them with those kisses. His hands rake through Jayce's hair as he steadies him. He can feel Jayce's hard-on pressed up against his stomach, and it makes a thrill shoot down his spine.
Once they part, Viktor will shift against Jayce, those eyes of his multicolored as he looks taken with Jayce once again. He'll mull it over...unsure of how to really explain what it is he wants Jayce to do to him. ] You have a screwdriver in there, Jayce? [ Is he joking or serious? Judging by his tone, he is entirely serious!! But they're also freaks, so he really, really, wouldn't be surprised. ] Beneath all of...this, it feels indescribable when things touch through the gaps.
[ It sounds incredibly weird to talk about his body like a science experiment, but he knows Jayce will not judge him for it, or so he hopes. ] If you were to undo one or two and use your hands...I want to see what it feels like.
[ He will take Jayce's wrist and drag his hand along the bolts affixed to his chest, the topmost one is in the shape of his suit, but the others are the remnants of his backbrace fused to his body by the hexcore's transformation. In doing this, he's showing Jayce exactly what he means. He'll look back up at Jayce with a wary expression. ]
Would you be open to doing that for me? [ The tone is as dismissive as it is wanting, and Viktor's other hand strays between them to the base of Jayce's cock. His eyes are half-lidded as he lets out a soft sigh. ] It might feel incredible to have your fingers inside me like that. [ He knows for a fact it will. ]
I only want you to do this. You gave me this body, so we should enjoy it together.
[Viktor's fucking with him, isn't he? Oh wait, no, he isn't. Jayce listens, brows furrowed, his hand dragged along Viktor's stomach and chest, where the bolts of his brace are embedded now into his skin. Viktor's hand teasing him already sure isn't helping him keep a clear mind about this, either.]
You want me to open you up, literally, and stick my hand in?
[He's a little agape, more because of precisely how dangerous that could be. They haven't studied Viktor's new form enough to know what could happen even before he sticks his hand in- just undoing those bolts alone could tear Viktor apart. Maybe.]
You're... really sure?
[He's curious about it, of course he is. The very first thing he wanted to do when they were together in that astral mind space was to try and shove himself inside Viktor. It's only the potential for danger that would hold him back. But if Viktor's truly certain...]
What you're reaching for right now isn't a screwdriver. But I've got one in the drawer.
Yes I am sure. I have never had much say over it, my body, but this is something I can say for certain I wish to learn about with you, together. [ It's a hushed whisper as he stalls his hand, eyes looking back at Jayce with worry and a tinge of uncertainty. ]
It does not have to be right now in this moment if you are...worried. [ It is a bit of a curveball to this otherwise strange day they're having, and Viktor already worried Jayce enough as is coming here. ]
But I did want to make it known for the future, for later, and perhaps we can discuss how to go about it together. Unless you would like to try now? [ He will lean in to kiss Jayce on the lips before pulling back. He gives him a questioning look. ]
[He knows it's not Viktor's intent to remind him of how Jayce himself was someone who helped contribute to Viktor not feeling like he had any say over his body, but he does tighten his jaw upon hearing it, his own guilt there but fleeting.]
If it's what you want to do, we can do it now.
[He leans in, giving another replying kiss to Viktor's own, and then kissing his forehead as well.]
I'll just need to find my tools. And... blow out all the candles.
[ The humming in Viktor's chest pauses for a second, and he looks surprised but also genuinely appreciative of Jayce's willingness to go along with his crazy ideas for the night. But there is one little thing... ]
Perhaps we should, ah, help you first? I cannot imagine it will be easy to concentrate when you are, well, hard.
[ Taking care of Jayce is just as important to him, and he wants this to be good for them both. His cheeks are also flushed as he murmurs that, eyes looking down between them. ] I want you to enjoy yourself as well, Jayce.
[ A huffed sigh as Viktor watches Jayce before moving to the bed. He'll sit at the edge of it, looking a bit uncertain as to what to do, before he finally climbs onto the bed and rests his back against the headboard. The waiting makes him think, makes him unsure, and overthink, so he's blurting something out before he has a chance to stop himself. ]
I hope that you are not disappointed or simply doing this out of obligation, Jayce. This is not exactly what you had planned. You can tell me if you do not want to continue... [ Viktor!! ]
I feel like I should make it up to you somehow. [ In someways he feels like he's ruined a perfectly romantic evening together with his need to study his own body. ]
[Jayce, who had been mid-searching through his drawers to find his tools, picks up a small socket wrench as he gives a Look over to Viktor.]
Do you know how crazy I'd have to be to not want to spend time with you? It doesn't matter if this is what I had planned. The point was to spend time with you. We can do my thing another time.
[With his toolkit discovered, he brings over the box that jingles around from the sounds of metal pieces bumping up against each other, and he sets it on the bed next to Viktor's thigh. Climbing up onto the bed himself, he holds himself up over Viktor, keeping eye contact (for now).]
Because I also want to see what's going on in there. I've been wanting to take a look inside since that day you woke up.
[ Viktor does stiffen ever so slightly when Jayce says his name like that. The look also makes his cheeks flush as his gaze averts itself. He makes his hands busy with, well, the edges of his robe. ]
Of course. I didn't think you would be disappointed about that, spending time with me, but merely...this. [ Though hearing that Jayce has been wanting to see what's inside of him just as much as he has isn't surprising either. ]
Do you ever think about how there might have been a timeline where I might have stayed long enough for you and me to do so?
[ But it probably inevitably went wrong, as all of them had, but sometimes he does think about it. He's been watching Jayce the entire time, even as he climbs onto the bed and hovers over him. Viktor will reach out to bring one of Jayce's hands to his chest, face heating up with the action, and that whirling sound inside his chest drones on like white noise. There's also the electrical buzzing, and that's where Viktor's gaze averts itself toward the toolbox beside them both. ]
I will be sure to let you know if anything feels strange.
[Still holding himself up over Viktor, Jayce's expression changes to something more solemn, and a little hurt. He knows Viktor didn't mean to trigger a memory like that, but;]
I did.
[One of his sleepless nights in the ravine. Even before he knew that different timelines could exist upon meeting that older version of Viktor, his mind played out every possible version of their interactions. As far as he knows, there is a timeline where that happens. Where somewhere along the line, he doesn't disappoint Viktor enough into leaving. Would that have been a doomed timeline, too? Or are they both alive and happy in that one?
Jayce sits back onto Viktor's legs, freezes and hesitates for a moment with panic on his face like he forgot Viktor's legs are no longer frail, and then sighs and sits back down on them so he can dig through his tool box.]
Yeah, do that. I'm going to start with the pieces on your abdomen.
[ He notices the hurt and realizes what he's said...not a particularly good memory for either of them but it simply slipped his mind and from his mouth as a genuine question of intrigue. He will reach up to cup Jayce's cheek with a hand. ]
I apologize. I had not meant to make so light of it. [ It had been a hard time for them both after all. Viktor's expression softens as he lies back against the bed, nodding silently. ]
I am terribly curious to see what exactly is in there. [ Weird way to speak about your own body, Viktor!! But he does want to know just as much, if not more than Jayce. ] Go slow, and take your time.
[He doesn't blame Viktor, knows he didn't mean to summon those memories. It's a Jayce thing, and he pushes those thoughts away to focus on the task at hand.]
I wonder if you even... have organs anymore? Sure, you still have your nervous system and your reproductive system, but the rest? Do you even have... bones?
[Something he hadn't even considered Viktor not having until this point. He might not even have bones!
Jayce takes his socket wrench and begins unscrewing the bolts on Viktor's abdomen. As he removes the first bolt, he looks back up to Viktor.]
Mm. I am not sure I even have a normal system for either of those.
[ Viktor's lips remain pursed as he watches and waits. He would like to talk more about it, or at least know Jayce is talking to someone about it outside of himself, but that's a discussion for another time.
His attention is more focused on that screwdriver, and while the act of it touching those bolts isn't felt, the following removal certainly is. ] No, nothing y-ye—
[ Except with the release of that first bolt, Viktor lets out a soft 'oh' of surprise, and the lights within his body pulse with that action. There's a sharp intake of breath from Viktor as his eyes shift through every possible color imaginable. His face flushed as a strangely pleasurable yet almost painful feeling ran through him. ] —that was something.
[ He's pointedly looking away when he says that. ]
[Jayce pauses and looks to Viktor when he reacts, freezing still in case it was something out of pain. It doesn't seem to be the case, at least exclusively. Jayce tilts his head a little, raising an eyebrow with a curious expression.]
We're studying and researching, aren't we? Can't write "something" down as the result, that'd be awful for our notes. Use more words.
[He knows Viktor's looking away because he's shy of whatever reaction he's having, so Jayce'll have to tease it out of him. In response, he moves down a section, to the bolt below it, and intending to remove that one too.]
Do-Do not give me that look. You are unbolting pieces of me; the words to use to describe this are lacking quite a bit. [ Just a testy, huffed, reply as his eyebrows knit together. It's also said a bit teasingly because this really is ridiculous. But, alright, he's going to try his best with all of this?? A soft sigh as he regains a bit of his composure. ]
It...feels like a pressure valve, when there is a buildup, and it must be released. Undoing those screws is that release, and it is both relieving and...not.
[ Painful in all the right ways, he wants to say, but he sure as hell doesn't! His expression flusters even more because he's learning things about himself that he's probably known but just never really thought about. Pain being attributed to pleasure is not what he was expecting, but here they are. ]
The other feeling when watching you do that is-is perhaps best explained as when your stomach drops, when you see something you must have, and your breath catches in your lungs. Exhilarating and nervous, but there is also a soft, electrifying vibration when that screwdriver is pressed against the bolt itself.
[ Whether or not his stomach dropping is because he's enjoying Jayce touching him in such a fascinating and mildly horrifying way is another story. The electrifying vibration could be attributed to Viktor's own powers of melding flesh with metal, like he had done back in the commune. ]
Like a pressure valve… [Jayce repeats like he’s memorizing it, like he really is going to write this down for their notes later.]
The release is good, but does the lack of pressure make you feel empty? Or is it something else?
[He finishes unscrewing the second bolt, but doesn’t remove it right away, as Viktor explains more about what he’s feeling.]
Better explanation. That wasn’t hard, was it?
[There’s a smugness in his tone, of course. But Viktor’s announced that he wants Jayce to continue, so even if there’s some discomfort, it’s not anything Viktor’s flagging as a problem. Nothing that’s outright painful— or Jayce would stop outright, and they both know it.
The second bolt is almost all the way out, Jayce makes eye contact with Viktor, and this time sets the tool aside, instead placing his large fingers on the edges of the bolt, pinching it like he would a nipple.]
Can you feel each part individually? Or is this more like… a decoration? Extraneous to you? Is it the “skin” around it that has the sensation?
Empty? Somewhat. Mm, but it is more of a...relaxed feeling, I suppose? [ His voice is a little bit airy, and his eyes, even though they're staring at Jayce like he's hung the stars, do look a bit distant now. ] It has initiated a slightly disconnected feeling. Like I am not entirely inhabiting this body...
[ Viktor speaks as he watches Jayce place the screwdriver down and then takes that bolt in between his fingers and, oh, that is a different sensation than the one he had previously. It feels extremely good, but Viktor suspects it's due to the close proximity of Jayce's hand to the glowing openings left by the bolt's removal.
It even makes a noise of pleasure fall from his lips as he's quick to grab Jayce's wrist with a shaky hand. ] One thing at a time, Jayce.
[ He's trying to focus on all those questions asked of him, but give him a second to recuperate!! ]
I can feel it when it is separated like that. It feels...good, to be manipulated as such. I suspect that the openings they are leaving behind are the sensitive parts, or as you put it, the 'skin' around it. Near the rim, just like the gaps in my skin, are sensitive to touch. It is the inner light that I do believe is giving rise to such stimulus.
[ He is going to regret asking this, but he really wants to see, wants to make sure. The hand still wrapped around Jayce's wrist moves it over the first opening. Viktor, with half-lidded eye,s will tilt his head slightly as he gives it second thought. ] Try putting your finger inside one of them?
[It’s definitely apparent this is doing something for Viktor, even before he mentions the disconnect from his body— which sounds concerning, if Viktor didn’t seem like he was taking pleasure from it. Last time Viktor felt disconnected from his body alone was… well. Not the best time.
Jayce is obviously easily steamrolling onward, ready to take Viktor apart quickly since that’s what they’re after, but he didn’t consider how that pace could easily overwhelm Viktor and he slows to a halt once his wrist is grabbed.]
Oh…
[Viktor’s really getting something out of this, huh? That thought dusts a slight blush to his cheeks, because it just seems so… surprising? It’s not at all like just touching genitals, there’s something happening here he doesn’t understand much at all.]
I see… So the rim…
[He’ll be gentler this time, but pulling the screw out and putting it aside, he instead opts to run his pointer finger around the hole, circling it a few times before he dips his finger in, still rubbing the edges of it with his large finger as if he’s seeking the ridges that would hold a screw in there. He’s cautious, exploratory, but insistent in his pressing because his own curiosity needs stating.]
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You stopped answering so fast, I thought...
[Well, he thought a hundred things. He imagined that Viktor had vanished the moment he stopped talking- which he knows is incredibly unlikely, but try telling that to his anxiety. He imagined that Viktor interpreted his disappointment as disinterest- disappointment, even the slightest amount, is something he already feels nervous admitting to, given the people-pleaser that he is. Along with the fact he tried to change things up, it had "I fucked up" written all over it when he poured over the very small text exchange. Maybe Viktor was distracted by someone else more interesting, maybe Viktor had been kidnapped-]
Don't worry about it. I'm fine now.
[And he reaches up to cup Viktor's hand, sliding it over slightly so he can press a kiss to his palm.]
ain't that the truth
[ He just gives him a look and a huff as Jayce presses his lips against his palm. It sends a thrill through him, but he does have to look behind Jayce before raising an eyebrow at the display. ]
What is all of that? [ Besides extremely romantic for something that was a simple texting thread. Viktor sure is having so many mixed feelings about it. He feels...strange but not in a bad way. Just most of their encounters thus far haven't exactly been like this, romantic and so openly at that. Viktor's look is quick, so he misses the present on the bed, focusing back on Jayce instead. ]
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The candles?
[They have clearly been melting for at least an hour, but all the lights in the apartment are on, since he didn't work his way up to their purpose in the photos.]
Mood lighting. And also... you know. Maybe other uses, if we wanted.
[Waxplay, for one. Jayce is still holding Viktor's hand, although now intertwining their fingers, and pulling Viktor in closer so he can place his other hand on the small of Viktor's back.]
And the present is because I didn't get you a gift for the holiday or your birthday, so I doubled up on it.
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[ It's very, very, interesting. Viktor, when pulled in closer, lets out a soft sigh as he lets go of his staff, placing it against the nearest countertop before using his other free hand to caress Jayce's cheek.
Nothing but yearning and wanting in his eyes as he smiles slightly. ]
I see. [ He gives Jayce a small, gentle kiss. ] I like this. It is different, but when it comes from you, it does make me feel...content.
[ Loved. Wanted. It almost feels like too much all at once, but Viktor doesn't voice that to not ruin the mood. ] If this is the gift I get for sending you half-naked photos, I will have to invest in doing so more often.
[ Just trailing that hand down toward Jayce's chest now. ]
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[Trying to organize their sexual activities into itemized and checkboxed list... You know, like a scientist would do.
With both of Viktor's hands on him now, and the staff away, Jayce takes the opportunity to kiss Viktor, and then lean him back, dipping him with the kiss. He pulls Viktor back up once he feels the blood start to rush to his head a little too much.]
You could have sent me nothing and I still would have done this. I'd do this for you any day of the week. But also, send me the pictures. I'll find a way to put them on my wall.
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You really want to schedule and make lists for this sort of thing? [ Viktor can't help but let out a soft laugh. It's ridiculous, but so obviously them that he can't help but agree to it. ]
But I would like that, quite a bit. There have been some things...I would like to, eh, try as well with you. [ Does cracking open your soulmate's chest and touching the weirdly cosmic eldritch goo underneath count as a sexual act or a science experiment?! Tbd!
Viktor's eyes shimmer with surprise when he's dipped backwards like that? Jayce please!? His free hand goes to cup Jayce's neck, deepening that kiss even as they both come back up. He is pressing himself eagerly against Jayce's body now, eyes half-lidded. ]
I will send you one, no multiple, every day from now on, if you would like.
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[Jayce's eyebrows pinch together, lips pursed as Viktor brings up Dodger, once again a little red in the face and trying to disguise it.]
At least, you know... Once. To see if we like it.
[Nevermind that he's getting hard at the idea of being passed back and forth between them.]
We can be loose with the schedule, but a checklist- come on. You can't say that wouldn't be a good idea.
[He presses another kiss to Viktor's lips, then slides his tongue into Viktor's mouth, pressing against Viktor's own. With his hand still on Viktor's hips, he pulls him close, and his rather unsubtle hard-on presses against Viktor's stomach, even as he breaks away again.]
Tell me more about what you'd like to try. Maybe I've got something in that box that'll help get the job done.
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Once they part, Viktor will shift against Jayce, those eyes of his multicolored as he looks taken with Jayce once again. He'll mull it over...unsure of how to really explain what it is he wants Jayce to do to him. ] You have a screwdriver in there, Jayce? [ Is he joking or serious? Judging by his tone, he is entirely serious!! But they're also freaks, so he really, really, wouldn't be surprised. ] Beneath all of...this, it feels indescribable when things touch through the gaps.
[ It sounds incredibly weird to talk about his body like a science experiment, but he knows Jayce will not judge him for it, or so he hopes. ] If you were to undo one or two and use your hands...I want to see what it feels like.
[ He will take Jayce's wrist and drag his hand along the bolts affixed to his chest, the topmost one is in the shape of his suit, but the others are the remnants of his backbrace fused to his body by the hexcore's transformation. In doing this, he's showing Jayce exactly what he means. He'll look back up at Jayce with a wary expression. ]
Would you be open to doing that for me? [ The tone is as dismissive as it is wanting, and Viktor's other hand strays between them to the base of Jayce's cock. His eyes are half-lidded as he lets out a soft sigh. ] It might feel incredible to have your fingers inside me like that. [ He knows for a fact it will. ]
I only want you to do this. You gave me this body, so we should enjoy it together.
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[Viktor's fucking with him, isn't he? Oh wait, no, he isn't. Jayce listens, brows furrowed, his hand dragged along Viktor's stomach and chest, where the bolts of his brace are embedded now into his skin. Viktor's hand teasing him already sure isn't helping him keep a clear mind about this, either.]
You want me to open you up, literally, and stick my hand in?
[He's a little agape, more because of precisely how dangerous that could be. They haven't studied Viktor's new form enough to know what could happen even before he sticks his hand in- just undoing those bolts alone could tear Viktor apart. Maybe.]
You're... really sure?
[He's curious about it, of course he is. The very first thing he wanted to do when they were together in that astral mind space was to try and shove himself inside Viktor. It's only the potential for danger that would hold him back. But if Viktor's truly certain...]
What you're reaching for right now isn't a screwdriver. But I've got one in the drawer.
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It does not have to be right now in this moment if you are...worried. [ It is a bit of a curveball to this otherwise strange day they're having, and Viktor already worried Jayce enough as is coming here. ]
But I did want to make it known for the future, for later, and perhaps we can discuss how to go about it together. Unless you would like to try now? [ He will lean in to kiss Jayce on the lips before pulling back. He gives him a questioning look. ]
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If it's what you want to do, we can do it now.
[He leans in, giving another replying kiss to Viktor's own, and then kissing his forehead as well.]
I'll just need to find my tools. And... blow out all the candles.
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Perhaps we should, ah, help you first? I cannot imagine it will be easy to concentrate when you are, well, hard.
[ Taking care of Jayce is just as important to him, and he wants this to be good for them both. His cheeks are also flushed as he murmurs that, eyes looking down between them. ] I want you to enjoy yourself as well, Jayce.
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[He separates from Viktor after that kiss and goes around blowing out the candles.]
Don't worry about me. Get yourself comfortable on the bed, I'll get the tools.
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I hope that you are not disappointed or simply doing this out of obligation, Jayce. This is not exactly what you had planned. You can tell me if you do not want to continue... [ Viktor!! ]
I feel like I should make it up to you somehow. [ In someways he feels like he's ruined a perfectly romantic evening together with his need to study his own body. ]
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[Jayce, who had been mid-searching through his drawers to find his tools, picks up a small socket wrench as he gives a Look over to Viktor.]
Do you know how crazy I'd have to be to not want to spend time with you? It doesn't matter if this is what I had planned. The point was to spend time with you. We can do my thing another time.
[With his toolkit discovered, he brings over the box that jingles around from the sounds of metal pieces bumping up against each other, and he sets it on the bed next to Viktor's thigh. Climbing up onto the bed himself, he holds himself up over Viktor, keeping eye contact (for now).]
Because I also want to see what's going on in there. I've been wanting to take a look inside since that day you woke up.
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Of course. I didn't think you would be disappointed about that, spending time with me, but merely...this. [ Though hearing that Jayce has been wanting to see what's inside of him just as much as he has isn't surprising either. ]
Do you ever think about how there might have been a timeline where I might have stayed long enough for you and me to do so?
[ But it probably inevitably went wrong, as all of them had, but sometimes he does think about it. He's been watching Jayce the entire time, even as he climbs onto the bed and hovers over him. Viktor will reach out to bring one of Jayce's hands to his chest, face heating up with the action, and that whirling sound inside his chest drones on like white noise. There's also the electrical buzzing, and that's where Viktor's gaze averts itself toward the toolbox beside them both. ]
I will be sure to let you know if anything feels strange.
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I did.
[One of his sleepless nights in the ravine. Even before he knew that different timelines could exist upon meeting that older version of Viktor, his mind played out every possible version of their interactions. As far as he knows, there is a timeline where that happens. Where somewhere along the line, he doesn't disappoint Viktor enough into leaving. Would that have been a doomed timeline, too? Or are they both alive and happy in that one?
Jayce sits back onto Viktor's legs, freezes and hesitates for a moment with panic on his face like he forgot Viktor's legs are no longer frail, and then sighs and sits back down on them so he can dig through his tool box.]
Yeah, do that. I'm going to start with the pieces on your abdomen.
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I apologize. I had not meant to make so light of it. [ It had been a hard time for them both after all. Viktor's expression softens as he lies back against the bed, nodding silently. ]
I am terribly curious to see what exactly is in there. [ Weird way to speak about your own body, Viktor!! But he does want to know just as much, if not more than Jayce. ] Go slow, and take your time.
[ He sounds a tad bit nervous and also excited. ]
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[He doesn't blame Viktor, knows he didn't mean to summon those memories. It's a Jayce thing, and he pushes those thoughts away to focus on the task at hand.]
I wonder if you even... have organs anymore? Sure, you still have your nervous system and your reproductive system, but the rest? Do you even have... bones?
[Something he hadn't even considered Viktor not having until this point. He might not even have bones!
Jayce takes his socket wrench and begins unscrewing the bolts on Viktor's abdomen. As he removes the first bolt, he looks back up to Viktor.]
Feel anything yet?
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[ Viktor's lips remain pursed as he watches and waits. He would like to talk more about it, or at least know Jayce is talking to someone about it outside of himself, but that's a discussion for another time.
His attention is more focused on that screwdriver, and while the act of it touching those bolts isn't felt, the following removal certainly is. ] No, nothing y-ye—
[ Except with the release of that first bolt, Viktor lets out a soft 'oh' of surprise, and the lights within his body pulse with that action. There's a sharp intake of breath from Viktor as his eyes shift through every possible color imaginable. His face flushed as a strangely pleasurable yet almost painful feeling ran through him. ] —that was something.
[ He's pointedly looking away when he says that. ]
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We're studying and researching, aren't we? Can't write "something" down as the result, that'd be awful for our notes. Use more words.
[He knows Viktor's looking away because he's shy of whatever reaction he's having, so Jayce'll have to tease it out of him. In response, he moves down a section, to the bolt below it, and intending to remove that one too.]
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It...feels like a pressure valve, when there is a buildup, and it must be released. Undoing those screws is that release, and it is both relieving and...not.
[ Painful in all the right ways, he wants to say, but he sure as hell doesn't! His expression flusters even more because he's learning things about himself that he's probably known but just never really thought about. Pain being attributed to pleasure is not what he was expecting, but here they are. ]
The other feeling when watching you do that is-is perhaps best explained as when your stomach drops, when you see something you must have, and your breath catches in your lungs. Exhilarating and nervous, but there is also a soft, electrifying vibration when that screwdriver is pressed against the bolt itself.
[ Whether or not his stomach dropping is because he's enjoying Jayce touching him in such a fascinating and mildly horrifying way is another story. The electrifying vibration could be attributed to Viktor's own powers of melding flesh with metal, like he had done back in the commune. ]
It does not feel unpleasant, so you can continue.
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The release is good, but does the lack of pressure make you feel empty? Or is it something else?
[He finishes unscrewing the second bolt, but doesn’t remove it right away, as Viktor explains more about what he’s feeling.]
Better explanation. That wasn’t hard, was it?
[There’s a smugness in his tone, of course. But Viktor’s announced that he wants Jayce to continue, so even if there’s some discomfort, it’s not anything Viktor’s flagging as a problem. Nothing that’s outright painful— or Jayce would stop outright, and they both know it.
The second bolt is almost all the way out, Jayce makes eye contact with Viktor, and this time sets the tool aside, instead placing his large fingers on the edges of the bolt, pinching it like he would a nipple.]
Can you feel each part individually? Or is this more like… a decoration? Extraneous to you? Is it the “skin” around it that has the sensation?
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[ Viktor speaks as he watches Jayce place the screwdriver down and then takes that bolt in between his fingers and, oh, that is a different sensation than the one he had previously. It feels extremely good, but Viktor suspects it's due to the close proximity of Jayce's hand to the glowing openings left by the bolt's removal.
It even makes a noise of pleasure fall from his lips as he's quick to grab Jayce's wrist with a shaky hand. ] One thing at a time, Jayce.
[ He's trying to focus on all those questions asked of him, but give him a second to recuperate!! ]
I can feel it when it is separated like that. It feels...good, to be manipulated as such. I suspect that the openings they are leaving behind are the sensitive parts, or as you put it, the 'skin' around it. Near the rim, just like the gaps in my skin, are sensitive to touch. It is the inner light that I do believe is giving rise to such stimulus.
[ He is going to regret asking this, but he really wants to see, wants to make sure. The hand still wrapped around Jayce's wrist moves it over the first opening. Viktor, with half-lidded eye,s will tilt his head slightly as he gives it second thought. ] Try putting your finger inside one of them?
[ It's freak4freak hours. ]
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Jayce is obviously easily steamrolling onward, ready to take Viktor apart quickly since that’s what they’re after, but he didn’t consider how that pace could easily overwhelm Viktor and he slows to a halt once his wrist is grabbed.]
Oh…
[Viktor’s really getting something out of this, huh? That thought dusts a slight blush to his cheeks, because it just seems so… surprising? It’s not at all like just touching genitals, there’s something happening here he doesn’t understand much at all.]
I see… So the rim…
[He’ll be gentler this time, but pulling the screw out and putting it aside, he instead opts to run his pointer finger around the hole, circling it a few times before he dips his finger in, still rubbing the edges of it with his large finger as if he’s seeking the ridges that would hold a screw in there. He’s cautious, exploratory, but insistent in his pressing because his own curiosity needs stating.]
How’s this?
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